Reassurance

I just called the BeFrienders and it was delightful, I needed this so good.
I think one of the main reasons I have right now is self confidence and trust issues. I have never been told I'm right before, especially not about what I think. Sure I have always thought that what I think is my rights and is in fact, correct, but I've never really had anyone assure me. Told me that being rightful, is correct. I guess all I need is reassurance.

-I am seriously going crazy this time. I am seriously contemplating suicide this time. I am an ADHD autist that was lonely for most of his lifespan and now trying real hard to be someone he's not to no success. All progress would be forgotten at a few weeks time anyway.

-Having ADHD is terrible. Having ADHD while having unrespecteable hobbies, no positive role model or friends, born under a terrible regime and dumb country, and the instilled fear of making mistakes and learning from them is a reason to kill myself.

-Though I am a bit glad that while all of this seems to be daunting to be take at one time, it really isn't daunting or threatening at all. It all seemed like I'm playing a little game and managing my self.

-So my next move would be to stay on my game and keep pushing from one milestone till the other until I get to somewhere I actually want to be in.

-I'm having problems fitting into this new personality and thinking. It's probably just because it's new and I need to use some days on it.