After seeing me sitting in front of the computer all day long, Mom went ahead and said I never ever do anything in the house. I never cleaned anything, I never contributed anything to the kids and don't care about them. I fucking cried. It hurt so much.
But this time instead of just outright doing the whole silent treatment thing (which never worked because she just doesn't know) I forced myself to act nicely, since I've gone through this kind of incident time and time again. It was hard resisting to cry.
Immediately after that I contemplated suicide again. I listened to the songs suicide is painless.
It really changed my mind to commit suicide when it feels so great to type on this computer. And just this computer in general.
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